next to me,
They are forgetful of where my
eyes are, I tried to
remind them but they forgot my
eyes so couldn’t see my
At least stop dropping your pen. Themore you reach across the floor and brushed my
legs, the further you
get from my regards. I contemplated
Today is different. I am still here
early, yes, and one of them
picked the seat next to mine out of the
rows of empty seats and forgot I
can see, AGAIN. I took out a paper bag
I stole from the cafe.
No, though I am disgusted I love my gut
enough to not throw up and scald my tongue with acid.
I tore the mouth of the bag, you stopped looking below my eyes, noticed that I noticed, left.
The only puke this bag will
hold is my word vomit.
Again and again and again and again.
My room is painted blue because it’s the sky. It’s my sky, the window and its blue blinds a reality check. Or is it? When I lie on my bed the walls and the window blocking the sky outside blended together. I used post-it note reminders to make clouds, clumps of green, grey, pink or blue, urging myself to materialize imagination.
So my sky was never just a bright blue, besides the multi-colored clouds I pasted pictures, folded boats, hung medals or other shiny things, all in hopes of replicating a sunset years ago.
It was an explosion of colors, the Creator’s canvas. My eyes couldn’t pick out each shade and I was disappointed since I wanted to name them. But I never will, I never can, for it’s unfair to trap a thing so beautiful to a simple name.
Bread, apples, avocado egg salad paired with turmeric chicken
Scallion pancake covered with eggs, homemade bun, broccoli, asparagus and a touch of Taiwanese rice crispy
This one is actually made by me: eggs and cheese crepe with apples, bananas, lettuce and a dash of ketchup.
Eggs and avocado quesadilla, potatoes and coffee
Rice hamburgers with zucchini patties, avocado and tomatoes
Broccoli soup, bread, bacon, tangerines, avocado, egg and tomatoes
apples, eggs, coffee, the former two hamburgered
yams, rice ball and scallion omelette
grapes, sliced potatoes, portobello, butter lettuce, avocado and hot chocolate
My favorite meal of the day had always been the first one. When us humans wake from the daily hours dedicated to a coma most of us resurrect ourselves with a bite to eat.
For me, that bite of resurrection is not too different from the main motivation of the biblical resurrections of love unconditional.
Every morning I wake to the clamor and pots and knives against cutting boards, then my alarm follows. I would slap it off. My nose made guesses and carried by hungry steps my eyes affirmed my guesses: homemade breads baked last night, eggs, potatoes, yams or other dances of proteins and starches and a slip of sugar if I made any pastries. A swirl of colors, a rainbow of promises, each Asian fusion my mother’s experiments with local produces.
Most of the time I carry my plate and drink upstairs to make homework or studying more palatable. But, to tell the truth, it is not the tender omelets or the often under seasoned potatoes or the hand-grounded coffees that powered me through the rest of the day, but each bite that reminded me of my mother’s care and love, so sweet, endlessly empowering.
I wear so many shoes since I always stand in others’ shoes. Thinking in their places, trying to see from their angles; sometimes, just sometimes, I feel as though I am intruding on others’ room for thoughts. Am I making assumptions? Am I rushing to understand? But in this time and age, I think I will continue to wear many shoes.
There is a few things this 2016 election has in common with a certain dress.
- They are both white and gold (or at least, it seems so to some people)…if you sit Clinton, Kaine, Trump and Pence in a row in that order and focus only on their hair.
- They are both controversial
- They both got a lot more attention than it truly deserved
- And…by the end of the controversies (if there is an end), we’ve all beaten each up until we are all blue and black.
*Hopefully you are not traumatized by my comic…if you are…sorry, I couldn’t resist.*
I find admiration in a moth, whose stupidity in throwing itself into a flame is often mocked and criticized. But, I beg to differ, for I don’t see fire as a symbol for the fiery pits of hell. Besides, I know a moth, and I admire him.
He is always allowing his sparks of imagination to roar into a flame, and despite his fruitless flutters he will dance to the the light, allowing himself to be consumed and burnt though somehow, make a legacy out of the crisps of hardships.
So I thought, if I am drawn to a moth, am I not also drawn to the fiery fires of ambition and dreams by the transitive property?
It was the Winter Solstice a couple of days ago. And, being the Taiwanese I am, I celebrated the longest night of the year with food: while it is a great excuse for late night snacking, eating sticky rice balls with red bean soups is actually a tradition. And, being the philosopher I am, I was inspired by the contents in my ceramic bowl: while most would probably discuss the importance of upholding your own identity and despite being different, I was thinking a little beyond the cliché. The small number of the pink rice ball motivated me to eat it last even though I knew clearly that it is merely a pinch of food coloring more than the rest of the rice balls. While it may seem like a representation of individuality, is it overrated if it’s merely a difference by the surface? Yes, it could arguably be an unnecessary details to contemplate for an old-fashioned metaphor. But, in this age when individualism is such a major theme in education and literature, there are so many instances when the people around me or myself even try so hard just to be different from others by being what we are not. Isn’t it obvious that all of us are created differently, and that even if we have similar ideas, it’s most likely with different justifications or reasons or process? Is it a sin to be the white sticky rice balls and be the same as others? It’s not like it’s physically possible to be identical as another person anyway. There are most likely no rice balls that have the same mass and digest the same way, and I would like to be optimistic enough to believe that the same applies to humanity as well.